there's a muddy field where a garden was

since i have the most boring livejournal pretty much ever....

2005-09-25T01:57:49Z

enough said.

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-08-19T16:35:00

2005-08-19T23:36:33Z

im a jerk.

im sorry

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-07-29T10:08:00

2005-07-29T17:10:25Z

birthdayyyyyyyssssssssssssss, yum yum

thank you ryan for not thinking my grandma was anything less then equisite

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-07-16T13:56:00

2005-07-16T18:01:24Z

well, im over jaons, and after a nasty fucking crash, im s till alive.

this weekend was weird. first jason gave a bum nine dollars and twenty five cents for a six pack, then we watched special olymipcs softball, and laughed. they sucked.

Then we came back to his house, and met up with megan byrne and didnt drink at all.

We woke up at 1030 and then went to some cool beach place.

On the way there, we encountered these moutains where i flew over 10 feet in the air and luckily missed colliding with a flying bike.

My knee is white with fury.

Its kind of gross but im pissed over this crazy weird rip in my threads.

I want to go home.

I hate buchta so much.

Dick.

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-07-08T08:36:00

2005-07-08T15:40:07Z

im boreddddd

uhmmmm, yea rum-d-thunda + dan-joe-rous = hip hop crazy hyyppeppepepe

=uhmmmmm allan is crazy, he drink straight out the bottle, influeced straight to the throttle uggggghhhhhhh

raining, not fun i dont like the rain especially when i just got a new deck.....no skating:-(

someone is comming home today..can you say fun?

uhm trip in letssss seeee, hmmm 3 days?

yea yea, uhm skating trip frurrrrommm tooo new hampshire??? dont know skateing fun, skating in new hampshire, fun, fun,fun,funf,funf,ufn,

i dont think allan is going though, pity

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-07-05T18:09:00

2005-07-05T22:09:44Z

heyyyy

i am over jason BUCHTAAAAAAs house, andicant type yea

uhmm

we made a couple bombs, fun good times, bombs

had a couple drinks

fun

uyhmmmmm holla at yiuor botsssss

uhmm

this pronbabalydoesnt make sense buty uos well

;yea@@<- thats a cool sign to be putting in this lievjournaljog

yea!

jason is a ;coooooooooool littlerobot

"my ass is sweaty" jason buchta

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-07-04T16:17:00

2005-07-04T23:24:31Z

holy shit holy shit

i went over drews to jam and whatnot, and at the end of the night i found myslef at the bottom of a fucking clif

we had a fire going on a rock, and i poured to much gas on it, and i took a step back, and i fucking fell off the cliff. Drew was fucking amazed that i was still alive haha it was fucking crazy.......if i fell a foot to my left i would of been unconcience..their was two levels to a tree and i managed to fucking fall over the first level to the second level in the pitch black (which was like 25 feet from the rock) haha and started to roll, thank god for that god damn tree....drew was an aithest before...then he was so fucking amazeed that i was like alive he told me seriously that it was a miracle and that he now belived in god...hahaha so then i fucking ran up the hill because i was afriad i was going to have spiders on me, then i made tea and called it a night,

then i went to my grandmothers house with my cousins and stabbed each other with knifes, and nothing else reallly.........................now im bored

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-06-29T16:37:00

2005-06-29T23:43:45Z

All my friends
They got broken hearts
And if the world’s a stage we’re searching for our parts

We’ll face the winds that break the strongest of trees
Beckon for the sweet soft summer breeze

All my friends
They got broken wings
Never will you hear them asking why the caged bird sings
All my friends
They know how to live
Oh, so much sorrow and so much love to give

gooooood soooooonnngngng

And if you wanna leave me
Baby go ahead
I know you don't believe me
Oh when I finally said

That I'm not myself
When I'm with you
It takes and breaks
My heart in two

Does anybody have a clue
How hard I worked at loving you

as well as this song

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-06-26T11:56:00

2005-06-26T18:57:12Z

i like things

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-06-20T18:25:00

2005-06-21T01:27:23Z

im sooooo efffing coooooooool

im even cooler now...............

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-06-20T16:46:00

2005-06-21T00:06:03Z

im a god damn liar....im still going to comment im a liar

i got this really neato book when i got this really neato shirt.. the book is called the wine and the music......its SOOOOOOOOOOO good..its really old thought probably around when jc himself was born...but whatever i preatty much do whatever i want so im going to do whatever i want now....can you say B-A-D-A-S-S can you say it took my a really long time to fucking type that oouuouououotttttt.

uhm skateboarding is fun...so is wearing neat sweatshirts in the summer like i do EVERYDAYadfasdkj bullllllllllllllbam

snapple lady is gross
gross
gross?
im hyper

i like typing words as fast as i can.
i also enjoy running as fast as i can
i also enjoy rammbling on and on
and i enjoy playing guitar
and i enjoy listening to seu jorge sing in his french

and i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee you

this book this book this book
"i wanted you" she said
He had nowords, none at all. HIs lips found the underside of her chin and he kissed her. He was becoming aware of himslef again. It surprised him that he was naked. He did not remember removing his clothes. He must have flung them about the room in that frenzy which was a part of the expierence, that frenzy which blocked out the awareness and the memory of itself. HIs hand moved up the girls back . Her skin was so smooth and she, herself, was so small. There was no need for speech between them. There was a touching, an awareness of the touching, and then the storm broke again.

they lay together and there was a great drowsiness now, a deep peace between them, a relaxtion of senses, a sense of fulfilment. There was no need for anyother thing. This was all of life, rich and warm, a spending of onesself and a drawing upon one's other self for renewal. ONes other self? Certainly/ That was it. One was a half-being untill one discovered that. He turned, lifting er face, his hand beneath her chin.
"i couldent get you out of my mind from the moment i first saw you," he said" and now i know why"
"do you?" she said

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-06-20T16:43:00

2005-06-20T23:44:07Z

LISTEN TO SEU JORGE!

fun with camaras

2005-06-15T23:02:01Z

first picture that was taken....hello amanda(not by me)

then i found out that kate was a total wierdo(not taken by me)

then i talked to sean and he said gnarly dude...shredders for life!!!

and said hello to noe

then noe decided to skateboard

tim was amazed at noes manuvers

tim agreed with noes skateboarding

then i was spotted with tim....(dont ask why tim is doing what he is doing)(i didnt crack a smile)

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-06-14T17:12:00

2005-06-15T00:12:22Z

this is not a post..im just going to post pictures from now on
fun with camaras and tiger masks

creeeeeeeeepy

crapitsjccalico @ 2011-06-08T15:46:00

2005-06-08T22:51:30Z

im just writing to say that this is my last entry..this is my final chapter of my journalized life..my life is better and all i can say is that im so so so sorry for anything..i cant say for the future yet though but i cant wait for the phone call

right now its between the internet and the phonecall and i hope this all works out

i oh so hope

....................................................goodbye

theirs a dream in my brain that just wont go away
its been stuck their since a few nights ago

scene 2 act 3

2005-06-07T22:20:40Z

yea id wait for you..untill you forgot my face

im sorry you dont talk to me anymore...it really gives me hope

and what makes you think i dont love you? there's one thing and i can do nothing about............... im sad again? i bet this makes you feel damn good................ or maybe to tell you that you hurt me like you always promised you wouldent...............yea you sounded so promising

scene 1 act 3

2005-06-06T21:19:17Z

im over it...im done....i tried

:-)

i feel good

rain storms are romantic

I’m in love with a girl who’s in love with the world
Though I can’t help but follow
Though I know someday she is bound to go away and stay over the rainbow
Got to learn how to let her go
Over the rainbow

But sometimes we forget who we got
Who they are and who they are not

There is so much more in love than black and white
Keep it loose child
You gotta keep tight

scene 5 act 2 i got these pictures from amanda

2005-06-06T02:15:14Z

and i had flowers in my hair

amanda trying to cheer me up teehee

scene 4 act 2

2005-06-04T12:00:47Z

condensation
cold water drips down the metal
of the bathtub weve been sitting in for days and days
the beams above us show no signs of breaking
every movement causes the pool to
shudder, but we dont move often.
your dark hair spreads across the fabric
of the shirt ive worn since we met
fanning out beneath my hands
a mess of auburn sticks
to my cheeks, my neck
your fingers run across it, and my lips
touch your skin, softend by use.
ill gladly wear away
if I,
if I can do it next to you,
blue eyes wide, searching
our breath fogs the glass just as the frost
outside
starts to form
this is a wonderful feeling
this state of stillnes
I
wont be over joyed to be out of love
so leave me here to rest
leave me here to stay
just
dont leave me

scene 3 act 2

2005-06-03T18:57:16Z

loving you is when i dont want to go when i dont want to go to sleep because reality is better then a dream

i cant promise you the moon or the stars, but i can promise that ill always be under thhem with you

if i had a star for everytime you brightened my day id be holding the galaxy in my hands

your the most addictive drung out their but the high is unlike anything eles--personal favorite she said

if i could be anything i would be your tear born in your eyes living down your cheeck and dying on your lips--super intense favorite

yea...i read the note...the end note....the end

i had to take a break every minute..i found a new purpose for my hat..to wipe up tears

when i first saw you i was afraid to talk to you
when i first talked to you i was afraid to love you
now that i love you im afraid to lose you

im advoiding the topic but i miss you so much, i need you to be here and more than anything i wasnt to just dee you again and hold you and just know that your here. But youre not here, not at all, and as soon as you get here i'll be gone...

its kind of scarey, acually, becuase im not used to liking people this much. Im scared becuase if you hurt me it could really break me..and im not exactly wanting that to happen

this isnt to make you feel bad..

scene 2 act 2

2005-06-03T01:35:10Z

I had a beautiful, beautiful time
The drives and the talks were amazing
The kind of friend I thought I'd never find
I had a beautiful, beautiful time
You have a beautiful, beautiful smile
The way it curls and collapses on your lips
When you touch me I shake like a child
It's late, I'm afraid you might leave
Cause sometimes it seems like
You still don't believe me
There's nothing I can do to concentrate
It's so distracting
Always thinking of you
So I expose and explain
And I meant everything I said
And it's moments like this
That repeat and replay in my head
When I'm laying in bed
It's a beautiful, beautiful time
As you laugh and roll onto your stomach
The carpet embraces your design
My heart pounds as I lay by your side
And I find that I am unable to hide
All these feelings that flow
In this basement, and in this dim light
you look so beautiful
I'm unsure and unclear with the words that I say
I'm happy when you're near
And I wish that forever could stay
Just like today
You have beautiful, beautiful eyes
So bright and alive and enchanting
I want to be with you all of the time
It's hopeless but I have to try

a promise was made without thought

scene 1 act 2

2005-06-02T23:01:13Z

its pretty safe to say that my life really sucks right now...alot

now i see love looking for you in this other girls eyes

i said to the vampire with the steak in his heart, you look how i feel

did you just hear my sigh?

you probably just forgot about the walks we had
or the long sleepovers
or everything

i cant read your notebook yet..i cant

scene 5 act 1

2005-06-02T00:22:38Z

dying? sounds good

so i went to schoool today...it sucked...

went skateboarding had the time of my life getting drunk in the iga and hanging out with my friends

then came home to my parents telling me that im a fucking loser and im so stupid and im not going to do anything with my life...and that they want me to stay with my grandma...and how my dad is such an asshole

highlight of my day....throwing some back with noe hahaha IM SO DRUNK

thanks for caring for me...it sure helps

the tears have stained my shirt..i never wipe them away

you say sorry so routinly...

scene 4 act 1

2005-06-01T00:47:58Z

ouch

scene 3 act 1

2005-05-30T22:40:35Z

lets all thank sophia for making my journal devendraful

this weekend was alright i dont know

friday was with ryan at the hottest place on the earth the back of an alley way on a roof of a collapsing building.then we went on a epic hike to the top of a stair case

saturday went to norwalk with kyle allan and chris threw some gnar and pulled off some sick

then stayed over kyles with chris and those fuckers ate all my money up

then sunday......i dont remember i think i skipped sunday

then monday skated in town with sean drew myslow for 30 mins and timmy

pretty babies, and pink ribboned pony tails..and cool washable markers

and i am not eating meat..im winning that two dollars allan..even though you might be mad at me..im sorry